I have 56 days til my husband leaves for basic. I'm worried in a way, but not really since he doesn't want to be with me. Such is life, I just hope that everything gets better.

   I am an amazing person and I know I can do this, I plan to. I planned on doing it even while I was with him, but without him is how it's going to be. Life kind of just gets in the way, I just hope that things really do get better for the best.

    I'm taking my meds like I should and I can feel them working more. I'm glad they are helping me. I need to get myself to anger management and find someone to talk to about everything, who can help me. I'm slowly working on it and that's all I can do. I am doing what I need to do for me.

   I plan on being me from now on, but I am going to change. I need to find myself a hobby that actually keeps my interest. I have a hard time doing so. I want to change and take more chances and just experience life. I feel like I cannot be me around Mike because of the way I saw my parents. I know that I need to just do whatever and live my life and be happy for me. I shall be hay for me. It will take change but I know that girl is in there somewhere waiting to escape.

   I have been told recently by a fair amount of people that they think I am crazy. Not crazy in the head, but that I seem like I am a crazy person with my personality and such. It makes me giggle inside, because I really an not that kind of a person. I worry 24/7 about everything and put myself through crazy stress. I am so cautious when it comes to things, I sometimes think I miss out on so much life cause I'm a poop. Hence the change. :D

   Well I don't have much more to write, at least there isn't a lot of negativity in here. I shall try to look up and I understand I will have my bad days, but I will have many good ones too. <3